What A Difference a Year Makes

I’m back.

A lot has changed in my life since my last post.  I honestly don’t even know when I was on here last. My apologies.

My divorce was official in January of 2015. The year anniversary is coming up. It may have passed. I don’t know. All I know is that time heals some pain. Pain that I was feeling during this entire ordeal is not as severe as it was at once point.

I can breathe.

I survived.

Sure it stings to know they my ex and his girlfriend are having a baby and living in my old house that I shared with him and my children.

But I survived.

I bought my own home around the corner. It’s a perfect house for the kids and me. The energy is better. It’s a happy little house.

I survived.

I can breathe.

I’ve dated here and there—I’ve learned what I want and what I don’t want. I’ve learned what I deserve. That person hasn’t come along yet. I know the universe is working on it for me. I ask, I believe and I will receive.

I still harbor some anger and hatred towards my ex and her. I am really trying to work on that this year. I am trying to be in the present moment. Meditate. Be grateful each day for what the universe has given me. I am listening to The Secret during my 20 minute drive to work and back.

Ask.

Believe.

Receive.

Breathe.

Manifest it. How do I do that?

My psychic, C, told me to “manifest my new life.”

Um, what? How in the hell do I do that?

“Picture yourself in the house you want, the job you want and with the type of person you want to be with.”  (that one is easy…someone who is the COMPLETE OPPOSITE of my stbex)

She said to take ten minutes everyday and sit in silence and just picture it all in my mind.

I also have to write it down….so here goes nothing!

1. I see myself in a job working as a special education teacher and loving it as much as I love my current special education position.

2. I see me and the kids living in a quaint home that we can make our own. Finished basement and a pool in a great neighborhood for kids.

3. I see us being happy and at peace and with old friends, new friends and my family.

4. When the time is right, I see myself with someone who is honest, trustworthy, caring, thoughtful, puts family first, selfless, fun, has a sense of humor, friendly spontaneous….

If I do this everyday then maybe it will happen. She only sees good things for me.

Good because I am sick of eating shit sandwiches.