I love the quote, “everything happens for a reason.”
I use it to explain a lot of things that has happened in my life. Good. Bad. Indifferent “things.”
But WHAT is that reason? Did my stbex choose this life so that I can be punished for something? For something in my past? Is this my karma?
I am lonely. The kids went with him this morning and won’t be back until 6:00 tomorrow night. I am lonely.
Why does he get to have someone to spend his time with? I have spent the whole day doing nothing. I am lonely.
I want someone to share my empty time with. I get so sad and down when it’s just me in this house. My friends are all busy with their families and I am here. Alone. I’ts not their problem that I’m alone. I am jealous of their lives.
Jealous, sad, lonely, depressed, throwing a pity party right now.
I could pop a xanax and go to bed right now. Last night, I went to bed at 8:30. My Friday night was CRAZY!
I am such an outgoing, people person. This is not good for me. I can’t take it.